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Doesn't Matter

It doesn't matter anymore!
I've been hurt before!
Your cruel words can't touch my soul anymore!
I stopped thinking about the pain and just accepted it!

No more suffering!
No more pain to endure!
I lost my self in the lies you tolled me!
I no longer want to be your tool!

It hurts me to tell you that you are the cause of my pain!
It's hard to imagine what I feel!
My pain grows every single day!
I stand alone before your cruel eyes!

My heart is bleeding!
My eyes are dying!
My soul is departing this world!
I die as you laugh!

Doesn't matter to you!
You don't care about me!
So why should I care about you!
Doesn't matter anymore because I'm dead!
The first poem I write with my laptop :D:D:D:D

The inspiration for this poem kinda came from a fight betwen me and my dad. He tolled me that I was an egoist and we started to argu a lot and in the end we started to yell at each other and since I'm younger I had to back down and let him win the yelling!

Anyways hope you enjoy it :D
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SoundlessWhispers Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
oooh, a laptop! I love mine. :D

And, while the poem is absolutley brilliant, I am sorry. I, in a way, know what that is like.
I was filled with such a high when I discovered that I didn't have to listen anymore. Too bad I made my move when I was too young to actually follow it through; I didn't know any better... when my voice refused to be silenced, I just ended up getting subdued in other ways.
So I am sorry, I don't know if your dad is actually nice or not (maybe on occasions?), but right now I don't like him one bit; especially since he is causing you pain.... :hug:
It always seems to hurt more if they are close to us, even if that closeness is only because of the tattered bonds of family.

But again, the poem you have written is amazing. I love it.
It's kind of ironic how our pain makes the best expressions through words recorded into poetry...
And I am glad that you have decided that it will not affect you anymore. You're stronger than I. :)
:tighthug: Despite your decision that he will no longer wound you, I still hope you are okay.
willyoudieforme Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Student Filmographer
Yeah I love mine too :la::la::la::la:

Well dad gets mad at me sometimes because he and mom think that I'm an egoist and sort of things. And that is not true at all. Also he doesn't like me to complain that I'm going to my village and stuff. And the reason I complain is that not to long ago I had a health problem and I need somethings that we don't have on our village. Well the real pain is that both my parents don't believe very much in me and that is kinda frustrating and making me push myself to the limit so I could show them that I can.
Thank you for the support :hug:

Anyways most of the time we get along greatly with dad. Drinking bear and talking about what we think of :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
And besides dad can't stay mad at me for more than two or three days because I'm an only child and I'm a boy and if I'm mad at him or he at me he won't have someone to drink with :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Thank you :):):):)
Yep feelings are an amazing source of inspiration :):):):):)
Well I don't care what they say to me. I stopped caring about that after I finished six grade :D:D:D:D:D:D

Yep I'm fine and I plan on staying fine and not listen to them when the yell at me :D:D:D:D:D

Thanks for the support :hug::tighthug::hug:
SoundlessWhispers Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
.... To be honest I just want to hug that stuffing out of you. You're so sweet, kind, and expressive. I have no idea where this whole 'egoist' thing is coming from. Obviously, they are blinded by something else.
And I totally understand the whole 'they don't believe in me'. Mine don't think I have enough responsibility to brush my own teeth, let alone the bigger things. They claim that I am lazy (which I know I am, but everything got done sooner or later) and that I am a disappointment. Unlike you, however, I stopped trying at age nine. I probably shouldn't have, but I did. I now have someone who helps me with stuff like that, but back when I didn't, I made a lot of minor, but stupid choices.
So I totally understand. I'll always be here (although I might get to messages late... ^^;), and you'll always have my support. :) :tighthug::hug:

Lol. Well I'm glad that it doesn't last very long. But even the shortest fights can have the heaviest feel of isolation. It's really cool that you guys can work it out though.

Again, you are so very welcome. :D
I should be thanking you for all of the support. :):) :glomp:
willyoudieforme Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Student Filmographer
Oh thank you. Don't know what to say, you are way to kind to me :) :blushes: :)
Yeah me too I just asked them to buy me a laptop so I could only focus on my writing because I'll need it and I wanted to show it my cousins and the night they yelled at me because I was walking around with the laptop and they say that I wanted the world and stuff like that. But it doesn't mater now.
Yeah the same with me no trust at all. I'm also lazy person but when I get down to something I do it. :) Well we all make mistakes sometimes but I don;t understand parents why should they not believe in us. Well for me it doesn't mater now. I live my own way and don't listen to them very often.

Sorry about that I was on my village and I don't have internet there, my bad! Thank you, same goes to you. If you need someone to talk to I'm here ;););)

Yep it doesn't last long now and we don't argue often now :):):) Yeah it's really hard and painful to be isolated :):):) But anyways in doesn't mater now I've overcome this and I don't care anymore :):):):)

Thanks :)

I'm here if you need me :) :hug::tighthug::hug: :)

P.S. I'm going to bed now because its 00:00 in BG :):):):)

Talk to you tomorrow :):):)
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